I'm Numb... but not as numb as I want to be.
I got a call at work yesterday from my ex telling me that Benoit and Nancy were dead and my first thought was car accident, I was busy so couldn't stay on the phone long and just went back to work without it really registering.
About 30 minutes of staring blankly at the screen later I realized she'd said "found dead" and called back, that's when she told me about the double murder/suicide. I assumed it was Nancy thinking that maybe it had something to do with the time Benoit took off last year to 'take care of her' and his skipping the PPV for a similarly vague reason. Sort of slipped between sadness and shock all day, planning on coming home, ordering a Benoit shirt online (figuring the money would go to his other kids), drinking some beers, watching some matches and probably crying a lot.
Then I got home read the latest reports and I started feeling numb again but numb with a share of anger, anger that he could do this, that some people will remember or know about him him for only this... selfish anger that a man I considered a hero let me down and didn't let me mourn him properly (at least for now).
Reported By Patrick W. Boucher on Jun 26, 2007 - 6:23:58 PM
TVWeek.com is reporting that Vince McMahon will open up tonight's ECW on Sci Fi broadcast to publicly apologize for the three hour tribute to Chris Benoit last night. The tribute aired before knowledge of Benoit's guilt in the murders of his son and wife as well as his own suicide.
I find that strange, no matter what he's still dead and his friends will still miss him. But then everything's felt strange for the last 24 hours.