Functioning (marginally) better today... at least enough to write more than what I did before.
Thank you, Soguru. I really appreciate the support.
Thank you very much anais. I greatly appreciate you addressing each point I made. And yes, I did get a couple chuckles from things you wrote (about reading, and the parenthesied 'learned thing' from The Last Unicorn). It does help to know that you care about my presence here, and that I've made a difference. Because I tend not to think about it as I'm just 'doing what I do'. With that, it often doesn't register for me that what I write has impact (unless it is the negative from my botching writing something [or simply write too much] and that is pointed out to me).
And, anais, to respond to your semi-question, no, I don't visit any other forum regularly, and even if I do visit on rare occasion, I almost never comment elsewhere: so if I'm not commenting here, basically I'm not 'talking' anywhere online.
anais, I plan to print out what you wrote so I can remind myself as needed of the many helpful things you wrote. Thank you.
Lawful_Cupcake, how everyone treats and acts on their sexuality is their own decision. The only thing that would be 'wrong' was if you were doing things you weren't comfortable with as a way to 'punish' yourself or make yourself feel worse. With that, use protection for disease prevention, as you don't want experimentation or sex play to result in lifetime disease of any kind that could make things worse for you. [You might want to rethink your sources for partners, as I've heard some bad things about Craig's List contacts. But that may not be the case.]