I'm having a hard time dealing with life. I can't deal with the possibility that it may never go anywhere no matter how hard I try. I just can't deal with it.
I don't know your situation. But, it's possible that things will change for the better. Please don't give up! I used to be confined to a wheel chair. I had to learn to walk again, at age 29. At one point, I was hospitalized for 8 months straight. I became suicidal. So, I'd roll my ass from the neurosurgery ward, to the cancer ward. I realized very quickly I could have it a lot worse.
I got out of the wheel chair. But, the nerves that control my intestines, bladder, both legs and feet send signals that feel like electricity and fire at the same time.
Again, I became depressed and suicidal. Then, I noticed guys at the VA hospital that don't even have enough body to sit in a wheel chair. They have to lie on their stomachs, on a gurney, and roll around. Again, I realized I have it great, compared to some.
Life can and often does suck. But, if you look around, you'll see that "suck is relative."
I hope you can find a way to resolve your problems!