Every night, I feel like crying around 8 pm. EVERY night. I start feeling horrible. I just keep running out of things to do... videos to watch, nothing I used to do interests me any more. I'll occasionally work on a Pokemon team, or play a little Smash, but things just keep... idk. I'm still kind of depressed about Bas not being here. I mean, I'll be seeing him this fall... and if I don't then I don't know what I'll do. I'm not sure I'll be able to take it. Everything is weighing so heavily on me lately. I'm tired. So tired. I don't sleep more than 5 hours a night any more. I'm eating too much, and horrible food. I'm bordering on that 200 mark again, and if I hit that I think it'll really hurt.
I've also been really obsessed with the idea of marrying Bas lately, and starting a family and all that fun stuff. I don't know why. It's just stuck in my head and won't get out.
Every one of my old friends haunts me now. Constantly, I have thoughts of them running around my head. I'm trying anything to get them out, but they're persistent. Everything hurts.